I have come away


I have come away from my writing these past few months among other things: my fitness routine is almost non-existent.

My meditation game is there, but definitely not where I would like it to be.

I say I am in a bit of a searching mode – in the dark — Exploring the Wilderness of my discomfort – straight from the Live Awake Project. 

Searching for something or someone to help me take that next step into my dreams, passions and what my little heart desires!

But I can’t help but feel like I have cement for feet. Each step is a struggle, to get from point A to point B.

Reminders in my calendar to motivate me are flicked away like yesterday’s news. Oh right, I will get to you when I have “time” —that four letter word.

But then I got thinking after I read an article that one of my girls Melissa Allen posted yesterday. In the article the author mentioned that what you do from 6:00pm -12:00am  after your day job largely determines your future.

I started to think – what do  I do when I get home to further my future dreams? I mostly meal prep, chill out and peruse the net sprinkled with an occasional meet up with a friend. I have gotten away from my writing, my reading, my cancer course that I am taking. My fitness, MYSELF really.

I have been daunted by the “what’s next” question and somewhat stuck in it. If you don’t make any plans then there is no use in being upset that they do not go through as planned – as nothing was planned in the first place. Am I right?

Spring is a time for new beginnings. Of fresh starts. Of newness. Just like the beginning of the year, a Birthday, September when school starts up again.

They say there is no real time like the present to start whatever it is you have lingering in the back of your mind, right center in your heart and in the bellows of your soul. Small consistent actions each day can lead to big things. You just have to do it, believe it, visualize it and become it to see it true.

My inspiration for this post is from the Live Awake Project – a new podcast that has gotten me through the past few weeks. Thank you Gather to Nourish for the introduction!